The Gathering

Blessed is she who sees the star of her soul

as the light that is seen in the port from the sea.  — Inayat Khan

I hold you at arm’s length until I think I will die for wanting you,

And all that while, they are gathering.

I hear their whispers as they cluster around, crowding into this space, waiting for our time to begin.

They wait patiently, but I always worry that they will become tired of my messiness and hesitation and slip away,

looking for a place to gather that is more consistent

(and certainly one who is more punctual):

Despite all that, you always come.

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You settle in like fog seeping in from the sea.

The ten thousand things recede,

and sounds come through this fog like the sound of a ship’s bell.

Eventually,

I wash up on your shore and, leaning back, I look up at the tower where I know you are waiting for me.

I walk this island’s cold, rocky shore around and around, in and out of the waves that rise and recede,

getting closer to your winding stone stairway all the time:

Yet still hesitant.

How do you stand me?

You always wait patiently, and I always come, but I am afraid of that fog,

Afraid of getting lost and never returning, afraid of leaving my loved ones:

Yet isn’t that what I’ve bargained for?

That stony climb, those dangerous stairs . . .

Knowing you are waiting for me,

I cannot thank You enough.

(But who are these ones who gather?

Are they there for me, or am I there for them?

I feel I know, but I am shy,

And that is why I keep them waiting.  That

and hoping I will be adequate.)

Amidha Porter

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