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  1. Thank you for posting this, Amidha. No matter how much “spiritual work” I do (or psychological), this deep-seated anxiety hangs on and rears its head at the most inopportune times, paralyzing my ability to be present, or *aware* of my deepest inner Being. I just don’t think one can “meditate” it away, or “pray” it away. And its presence always leaves me feeling as if I’ve missed something, if “spiritual freedom” is even possible… Even those who claim to be “enlightened”, on some level still have “issues” that they have to deal with it seems…

    1. When I began meditating, nearly fifty years ago, I was convinced that meditation would take away my psychic pain….I thought that I would become “enlightened,” et voila! No more pain. Not so, of course. We’re here to be human beings, and while we eventually may achieve a certain amount of detachment from our personal pain, that doesn’t mean we still don’t have major stuff to work on. For me, this has manifested in my experience of my “monkey mind” in meditation. I am, right now, reading a book called “The Monkey is the Messenger,” by Ralph de la Rosa (and it’s marked down to less than $5 on Amazon at the moment!). If you’ve been meditating for awhile, you may find some of his material to be a bit elementary, but he is a therapist who has been through major trauma himself, and I am getting a lot of mileage out of his work. In fact, the title alone–“The Monkey is the Messenger”–works for me! That chattering primate that sits on my shoulder and refuses to shut up is the voice of my pain, and it’s trying to take care of me. I need to listen to it instead of fighting it, because it has a LOT to tell me.

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