Is the Spring coming?” he said. “What is it like?” . . .
“It is the sun shining on the rain, and the rain falling on the sunshine” . . .
–Frances Hodgson Burnett
Every day, I ask the God of my understanding, “how can I serve?” We are all isolated from each other at this point, and I am in a high-risk category for the Coronavirus, being both “of a certain age” and immune-compromised already, so here I am, me and my Mac, and it occurs to me that I can at least start paying attentinon to my blog, which despite my neglect of the last year or so, means a lot to me. How may I serve, I ask myself, and it seems that at this time, just to reach out is the best way to serve. Generally, I have no idea who reads my blog–well, I have some idea, but not much–but once a teacher of mine said to me “Amidha, you see things that few people ever see in their lifetime, and someday some lonely soul will read your words and feel that somehow, they have been understood, and they will not be so lonely.” I’m lonely too, of course; I think loneliness is what allows us to see, and further, I think loneliness is the inevitable condition of those who take “the road less traveled,” and the price that is paid for one’s sight…
I got up early this morning and walked out on my back porch. My Westies were already out, playing, rolling in the grass, experiencing the joy that is available to all of us when we can get past our fear…and they galloped up onto the porch, barking joyously, and made a fuss over me (how can anyone be lonely with a well-loved dog at their side?) and the air smelt sweet and the grass needs mowed, and tulips are starting to pop up, and all this proves that despite everything, life goes on. I look back at history, and think of World War II, as a for instance: people not knowing, when they went to bed, whether they would wake up the next morning. And it has always been thus. I think that in the US, we are rather spoiled, and these last years have given us the chance to find out where we really stand, and at the same time, to not have a leg to stand on. A devastating oxymoron! But we can make whatever we choose of it all: we can let it break us, or we can let it make us great. And after all, what is life as we know it? A dream in the mind of the Beloved.
I have a vague understanding of a quantum reality that encompasses many worlds existing simultaneously, worlds in which we have multiple existences…and then beyond all that, the worlds through which we came in order to reach this existence on the earth plane, which some believe is the farthest reach of incarnation. I am not of a scientific mind, so that is the best way I can evoke these memories I carry.
Where shall we live today? There must be somewhere we’re not all running scared from some plague. Or even better, there must be somewhere fear has been overcome in the face of inevitable joy.