Who Knew?

We must be willing to let go of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
Joseph Campbell

I thought I’d make a confession today.  Confessions are good for the soul, right?  You can be my confessor.  Here goes:

Over the years, I have neglected my blog for months at a time (maybe even years) because I felt that whatever I might write would not be perfect enough, profound enough, astounding enough…to put a dent in the universe.  Yes, I am a serial perfectionist.  I seem to remember writing about this before, but that was years back, and I realized, recently, that I still hadn’t fixed this little problem, and it struck me how selfish it is to allow myself to wallow in my need to be perfect.  As the world apparently continues to fall apart, I ask myself–again–“how can I serve?”  I notice that just about everyone around me is fairly miserable, because while we had a certain amount of enthusiasm for living through this pandemic, and helping others to live through it, the whole thing is getting kind of…old.

In addition, I happen to be sick myself, as I have mentioned.  It has taken me three days to write this, in fact.  Please understand, I have this CV-19 very lightly, it would seem, so I am not dying, or in any event, do not plan to. I continue to ask myself how I can serve, and I continue to feel that all I can really do at this time is to reach out, imperfections and all.  Horrors!  But it will do my good, even if it bores you.

Here I am.  I am aware that it is increasingly hard for most of us to maintain hope, and so again, I try to remember that the divine, the overwhelming magnificence of the universe is still in operation.  The universe is till evolving, and a lot of that evolution looks imperfect.  But a most wonder person, Jeff Kober (remember Dodger in China Beach?) tells us:

The Veda tells us that change is constant, that the nature of the relative world is continual change, always. Like the weather in Montana: if you don’t like it, wait a few minutes, it will change.
But the Veda also tells us that the changing nature of the universe is always progressive. Evolution is the only thing that’s ever happening here. Always. Like rivers always flowing downstream: regardless of how many curves and meanderings they may take, they always reach the ocean. Downstream flow is the nature of water. And evolution is the nature of consciousness. Consciousness cannot help but evolve. It cannot help but expand, widen, deepen, grow. This is its very nature. Though we may resist it or ignore it, pretend it isn’t so, in fact it is so. It always has been, it always will be.  (www.jeff.kober.com)
To me, this means that the bad guys are NOT going to win.  I was talking to my dear friend Suhrawardhi yesterday, and we were rather bemoaning the seeming mess we’re all in, and I commented that having an enraged toddler in the White House was not helping in any way.  He chuckled.  “Yes,” he said.  “But enraged toddlers tend to self-destruct.”  This, of course, reminds me of what Gandhi said:

Remember that all through history, there have been tyrants and murderers, and for a time, they seem invincible. But in the end, they always fall. Always.  – Mahatma Gandhi

As far as this universe we inhabit, it would seem that the it doesn’t worry too much about being perfect:  it just wobbles along.  And that is what all of us can do.  Let us be of good cheer.

6 thoughts on “Who Knew?

  1. Anonymous

    i wish you healing and good health. i thank you for your wonderful and inspiring post. it is all so beautiful and so perfect for this time. thanks, again.
    love, tajali

  2. Glad to hear that you have a less intense form of the virus and will be OK. One of the funny things about villains in traditional stories of India is that they may appear evil but are often devotees of God as well. When they are killed by God, they are instantly liberated.

  3. Thank you for the wonderful reminder that “change is constant”. I keep forgetting that… It’s also easy to get into the herd mentality of fear these days and start resisting that changes that are upon us. I am just now beginning to accept/relax into the “new reality” that is upon us with this virus thing that has and will impact many of us for months to come…

    You might be interested in this post I posted in Sept. 2019 – called “What’s So” by Werner Erhard… I have to read it often… 🙂

    Wishing you good health again!


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